Sunday, November 21, 2010

The Desire to Connect



In my life I’ve had the privilege of being counted amongst artists. Those who create and reflect the world to itself. Beautifully packaged and renamed: Art.

I fear the label as it implies that I took what was not and made it into what is. In my lifetime I have never been able to do that. I only connect what I am to what I am.

I see a world of contrasts, of black versus white, of good versus bad. I am both and I have but a duty to connect both to each other.



I have never known how to be anything but what and who I am. A hybrid creature who is truly and essentially what she is.

I dare to take a picture, connect it to a word, reveal a truth and inspire those who are disillusioned to say: I get it!

I have been fighting the contrasts between myself and have found comfort in the truth that is this: I am both.

Celebrate with me the dance of life, devour the diversity of all that you are and forgive yourself for all that you are not.



My greatest desire is to bring harmony to those who seek it.

Spiritually, artistically and physically. To be able to connect seemingly unrelated truths is an art in itself, but a truth nonetheless.

Ozithobayo:
Mbali Jama

The meaning of life...



To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never, to forget." - Arundhati Roy

The Dance - Oriah


I have sent you my invitation, the note inscribed on the palm of my hand by the fire of living. Don't jump up and shout, "Yes, this is what I want! Let's do it!" Just stand up quietly and dance with me.



Show me how you follow your deepest desires, spiralling down into the ache within the ache. And I will show you how I reach inward and open outward to feel the kiss of the Mystery, sweet lips on my own, everyday.



Don't tell me you want to hold the whole world in your heart. Show me how you turn away from making another wrong without abandoning yourself when you are hurt and afraid of being unloved.



Tell me a story of who you are, And see who I am in the stories I am living. And together we will remember that each of us always has a choice.



Don't tell me how wonderful things will be . . . some day. Show me you can risk being completely at peace, truly OK with the way things are right now in this moment and again in the next and the next and the next. . .



I have heard enough warrior stories of heroic daring. Tell me how you crumble when you hit the wall, the place you cannot go beyond by the strength of your own will. What carries you to the other side of that wall, to the fragile beauty of your own humanness?



And after we have shown each other how we have set and kept the clear, healthy boundaries that help us live side by side with each other, let us risk remembering that we never stop silently loving those we once loved out loud.



Take me to the places on the earth that teach you how to dance, the places where you can risk letting the world break your heart. And I will take you to the places where the earth beneath my feet and the stars overhead make my heart whole again and again.



Show me how you take care of business without letting business determine who you are. When the children are fed but still the voices within and around us shout that soul's desires have too high a price, let us remind each other that it is never about the money.



Show me how you offer to your people and the world the stories and the songs you want our children's children to remember, and I will show you how I struggle not to change the world, but to love it.



Sit beside me in long moments of shared solitude, knowing both our absolute aloneness and our undeniable belonging. Dance with me in the silence and in the sound of small daily words, holding neither against me at the end of the day.



And when the sound of all the declarations of our sincerest intentions has died away on the wind, dance with me in the infinite pause before the next great inhale of the breath that is breathing us all into being, not filling the emptiness from the outside or from within.



Don't say, "Yes!" Just take my hand and dance with me.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Dear Mr Too-Damn-Good



Sthandwa seyami inhliziyo,
Ngizwa ngishaywa uvalo
Uma ngibheka konke oyikho

Kungabe iqiniso ngempela ukuthi ungowami?

Bathi abanye bephilela ubumnandi,
Wena wakhetha ukuzithanda.
Bathi abanye bephilela imanje,
Wena wakhetha ukusebenzela ikusasa lethu.

Ingabe uyazazi nje kodwa ukuthi uthandiwe kangakanani,
Indlela ohlonipha ngayo, yenza uhlonipheke.
Indlela ozithobile ngayo, yenza kube lula ukukuthobela.

Uyindoda emadodeni, qhawe lami,
Unyinsizwa yoqobo sthandwa sami.

Akekho owake wangithokozisa futhi wangenelisa njengawe,
Ngokwo moya, ngokwo mphefumulo, ndlela zonke

Inhliziyo yami igcwele ukunethezeka,
Uyimpendulo yayo yonke imikhuleko yami.
Futhi injabulo onginika yona angikaze ngiyazi.

Ngibonga iNkosi yami, idlozi lami, ngawe
Mngani wami, Sthandwa sami, Myeni Wami.

(Dedicated to my 'sausage with onions' man)