Sunday, November 21, 2010

The Desire to Connect



In my life I’ve had the privilege of being counted amongst artists. Those who create and reflect the world to itself. Beautifully packaged and renamed: Art.

I fear the label as it implies that I took what was not and made it into what is. In my lifetime I have never been able to do that. I only connect what I am to what I am.

I see a world of contrasts, of black versus white, of good versus bad. I am both and I have but a duty to connect both to each other.



I have never known how to be anything but what and who I am. A hybrid creature who is truly and essentially what she is.

I dare to take a picture, connect it to a word, reveal a truth and inspire those who are disillusioned to say: I get it!

I have been fighting the contrasts between myself and have found comfort in the truth that is this: I am both.

Celebrate with me the dance of life, devour the diversity of all that you are and forgive yourself for all that you are not.



My greatest desire is to bring harmony to those who seek it.

Spiritually, artistically and physically. To be able to connect seemingly unrelated truths is an art in itself, but a truth nonetheless.

Ozithobayo:
Mbali Jama

The meaning of life...



To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never, to forget." - Arundhati Roy

The Dance - Oriah


I have sent you my invitation, the note inscribed on the palm of my hand by the fire of living. Don't jump up and shout, "Yes, this is what I want! Let's do it!" Just stand up quietly and dance with me.



Show me how you follow your deepest desires, spiralling down into the ache within the ache. And I will show you how I reach inward and open outward to feel the kiss of the Mystery, sweet lips on my own, everyday.



Don't tell me you want to hold the whole world in your heart. Show me how you turn away from making another wrong without abandoning yourself when you are hurt and afraid of being unloved.



Tell me a story of who you are, And see who I am in the stories I am living. And together we will remember that each of us always has a choice.



Don't tell me how wonderful things will be . . . some day. Show me you can risk being completely at peace, truly OK with the way things are right now in this moment and again in the next and the next and the next. . .



I have heard enough warrior stories of heroic daring. Tell me how you crumble when you hit the wall, the place you cannot go beyond by the strength of your own will. What carries you to the other side of that wall, to the fragile beauty of your own humanness?



And after we have shown each other how we have set and kept the clear, healthy boundaries that help us live side by side with each other, let us risk remembering that we never stop silently loving those we once loved out loud.



Take me to the places on the earth that teach you how to dance, the places where you can risk letting the world break your heart. And I will take you to the places where the earth beneath my feet and the stars overhead make my heart whole again and again.



Show me how you take care of business without letting business determine who you are. When the children are fed but still the voices within and around us shout that soul's desires have too high a price, let us remind each other that it is never about the money.



Show me how you offer to your people and the world the stories and the songs you want our children's children to remember, and I will show you how I struggle not to change the world, but to love it.



Sit beside me in long moments of shared solitude, knowing both our absolute aloneness and our undeniable belonging. Dance with me in the silence and in the sound of small daily words, holding neither against me at the end of the day.



And when the sound of all the declarations of our sincerest intentions has died away on the wind, dance with me in the infinite pause before the next great inhale of the breath that is breathing us all into being, not filling the emptiness from the outside or from within.



Don't say, "Yes!" Just take my hand and dance with me.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Dear Mr Too-Damn-Good



Sthandwa seyami inhliziyo,
Ngizwa ngishaywa uvalo
Uma ngibheka konke oyikho

Kungabe iqiniso ngempela ukuthi ungowami?

Bathi abanye bephilela ubumnandi,
Wena wakhetha ukuzithanda.
Bathi abanye bephilela imanje,
Wena wakhetha ukusebenzela ikusasa lethu.

Ingabe uyazazi nje kodwa ukuthi uthandiwe kangakanani,
Indlela ohlonipha ngayo, yenza uhlonipheke.
Indlela ozithobile ngayo, yenza kube lula ukukuthobela.

Uyindoda emadodeni, qhawe lami,
Unyinsizwa yoqobo sthandwa sami.

Akekho owake wangithokozisa futhi wangenelisa njengawe,
Ngokwo moya, ngokwo mphefumulo, ndlela zonke

Inhliziyo yami igcwele ukunethezeka,
Uyimpendulo yayo yonke imikhuleko yami.
Futhi injabulo onginika yona angikaze ngiyazi.

Ngibonga iNkosi yami, idlozi lami, ngawe
Mngani wami, Sthandwa sami, Myeni Wami.

(Dedicated to my 'sausage with onions' man)

Monday, September 27, 2010

Thursday, September 9, 2010

My Happiness (Dedicated to Mr Too Damn Good)

My happiness is your hand on my back
As we walk,

My happiness is hearing the words 'Sthandwa Sami'
When you answer the phone

My happiness is even the fight we had about me needing
To be more careful not just for myself but for those who love me.

My happiness is the warm embrace your family
Gave me when we met & how I feel each time we're together

My happiness is the way you drove for 50km
with one hand, just coz I like it when u play with my hair

My happiness is you, me and Mya Angelou
Reciting 'I have loved you in & out of time'

My happiness is us standing on the balcony,
Discussing why the plot next door is empty,

My happiness is you holding me tightly & saying
'I wish you could see my heart right now'

My happiness is us holding hands as we pray,

My ultimate happiness is bringing you to the part of my heart
Where only you, me and God Reside...

Friday, June 25, 2010

Let me tell you something... (By Q)



This I will write standing angeke ngihlale phansi
This one I don’t need a paper and pen, leyo angisayi phathi.
This one is been in my mind and it’s just itching to come out.
This one I will write standing I need no comfort

Let me tell you something about my girlfriend

My girlfriend is a heroin in the making.
My girl friend is a“black-woman” this has its own meaning.
My girlfriend forever shines.
My girlfriend is strong yet fragile at times.
My girlfriend she is “iMbali”,
She is an all season rose,

She is content,
My girlfriend is humble.
She is inspired,
She is her Mother.
She is open minded,
She is a thinker,
She is blessed.

She is transparent,
I can read her thoughts.
Sometimes I’m ashamed to say I agree,
We share the same view.
She very opinionated,
She is deep.

My girlfriend is a lover.
Uyisingqazu se Ntombi,
Uyathandeka.
She is dark,
She is beautiful,
Uyindoniyamanzi.

She is a woman.
Through her big beautiful eyes
I see the world of beauty.
She is passionate.
My girlfriend is aspirant.
My girlfriend is expressive.
My girlfriend is a writer.

She is much, much more and she knows it...

If God allows,
My girlfriend is my Future Wife.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Black Man I love you... and I hate you


Black man,
For just being you, I love you
You are my better & stronger half.

Black man,
I love you for never complaining or crying,
But I hate you for seeing my own femininity as weakness

Black man,
I love you for how hard you work & sweat to provide,
But I hate you for forgetting that it’s you that I love, not your money

Black man,
I love you for your strength, for being the head of our home,
But I hate how you’ve forgotten to be a bit gentle sometimes

Black man,
I love you coz you don’t believe in hitting women,
But I hate you for the scars that your words leave behind

Black man,
I love you for the beautiful love and intimacy we share
But I hate you for sharing what’s mine with all those other women

Black man,
I love you for expecting nothing but the best from me,
But I hate you for expecting me to live with less from you

Black man,
I love you for seeing that I am beautiful,
But I hate you for not seeing me as anything more.

Black man,
I love you, for your humble heart,
But I hate you for not seeing just how amazing to me you are.

Black man,
I love you for trying so hard to be everything I need,
But I hate you for not realising it’s not necessary, coz all I need you already are

Black man,
I love you for loving me,
But I hate you for not letting your guard down, and letting me love you in return...

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Invictus



Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.


In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.


Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.


It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

William Ernest Henley

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

21 Wise Ways to Live


ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
TWO ... Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.
THREE ... Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR ... When you say, 'I love you ,' mean it.
FIVE ... When you say, 'I'm sorry,' look the person in the eye.
SIX ... Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN ... Have at least one friend who challenges you often.
EIGHT ... Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.
NINE ... Travel to a new place every year, it broadens your perspective.

TEN ... In disagreements, fight fairly. Never be harsh, rude or cruel.
ELEVEN ... Don't judge people by their relatives.
TWELVE ... Find your own answer to the question: ‘What makes me happy?’

THIRTEEN ... When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, 'Why do you want to know?'
FOURTEEN ... Pray often... When you pray, remember to say ‘Thank You’.
FIFTEEN... Say 'Bless You' when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN ... When you lose, don't lose your dignity. Always keep your head up !
SEV ENTEEN ... Learn to forgive your parents, they’re only human.
EIGHTEEN ... Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship..

NINETEEN ... When you realize you've made a mistake, take responsibility and correct it.
TWENTY ... Smile when picking up the phone... The caller will hear it in your voice.
TWENTY-ONE ... Spend some time alone.